Wednesday, 14 November 2007

Pickup List

We spoke to Jon last night in a phone call via the embassy. He told us he is on the system for deportation, but the officer who said he wasn’t on the pickup list was correct. After various calls and emails to a very helpful lady at Timecom, he’s been put on the list for pick up on Friday.

Dan opened a bottle of wine, but instead of rejoicing, we argued. I screamed at him for nothing.

The closer it gets to Jon’s release the more my feelings are in turmoil.
All the strategies I’ve been taught to deal negative thoughts and stress seem useless just now. I’m battling to keep myself mentally strong. Tears well in my eyes at the slightest provocation.

If it's bad for us, how must Jon feel? I mean really feel, beneath the show he puts on for us. He sounded relieved, but positive. He always sounds positive. I can hear his voice berating me for my lapse into insanity. Then I start to feel guilty. If he can stay strong, so should I.

Copyright © 2007 Barbara Attwood

1 comment:

joannie said...

I'm so glad you were able to communicate-everything will fall into place. It's it extremely normal to be upset! Honestly, after all this, if you weren't screaming and crying I think something would be wrong. But you've got two good men in your life and they understand-this is HUGE! (tried commenting once and I'm not sure if it got through)

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